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Hey you guys! Well, I am at lunch at school, in the god damn library. See you all Jan. 31st, after my business exam. One more week. Miss me?

Thursday, I have my History exam and on Friday, I have Science. I am ready for Science and for History I am prepared but I am paniced. (Is it wrong that everytime I try to type History the first time I always type Hisato? Like I made this mistake everytime I typed that word in this and every one of my last entries. Your ghettoness has corrupted me, Hisato.)

I changed the background for this thing a few days ago and now all of my icons are RUN&GUN ones. Iconwhore, what?

So. Long. One week. Me gone. From Internet. I love you. Bye.

Even more icons for you all! Worry not, I know there is no Kyohei FLAME ones yet. There will be a shitload when I orgranize my FLAME pictures. xD These ones were practice and done in like 2 hours while talking to my brother on the phone. Damn I miss him. My parents just had to take him so far away. Him and my sister. Me and them together were perfect combination. They are only one year older then me. I feel so empty without them around. Its painful to know that your own parents dont see that us siblings depend on each other. I saw them when they came back from the final coustody hearings. My dad got coustody of them and sent them to boarding school for a better education. But I feel that I should be there with them or them with me. They are going through the same pain as me. Its been 3 years that we have lived like this, so lost and confused. My little sisters don't understand this, they were so young when it all happened. I was 12, I felt it all, I understood it all. Then my dad got remarried the year after the divorce. This gave me another reason to miss my brother and sister because my stepmom and stepsister came into my life to screw me over. My nature is very kind and I was really nice to them. But, no matter how much I try, they do something mean to me. Which is really painful, if my brother and sister were hear they wouldn't do it. Its not like they can stop it exactly but they can be there for me. Sandra and Dew were all I had until I reached 12, then everything went away from me. My parents still dont understand that when we ask "How is Dew?" or "How is Sandra?" or "How is Enna?" We are asking out of love and worry. After reading about my crappyness, here are the icons to make you feel a little better....

 

Teasers:  

• 2 Wiess Kruez
• 8 FLAME
• 1 GACKT
• 1 LEAD

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My little sister is having a sleep over today. I feel my death drawing closer and closer. She knows I feel it, she is mocking me telling me about this event, which will end my life as I know it. @_@ Every year I endure this, my sister's fall sleepover. Its is BEASTLY! Its a beast, a pure brabarian! If it was alive it would be anyways. I hate it. I want to die. I probably will. Its always like this:

girls: "ENNA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOUR SO COOL YOUR OLDER THEN US AND YOUR IN HIGHSCHOOL YOUR SO AWSOME OMFG WE LOVE *fangirl screams*"
Me: "what...?"
girls: we think your sooo cool! and pretty! and smart!
me: ... I'm not dont say that...
girls: ...
me: ... yeah like that, dont say anything...
girls: "FEAD US, ENNA!!!!"
me: get it yourselves... *points to sister* she's your host not me...
girls: ENNA'S MOM!!!!!!!!!!!!
me: okay okay!
girls: yayyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

15 minutes later

me: here... *gives food*
girls: yayyy!!!!
me: *deaf in at least one year*

It is sooo crazy. They go on about how much they love me for like 20 minutes and my little sister cringes through the whole thing. @_@ Then they make me do thier make-up and they tell me about thier little boy toys and its hell. . .

Some one save me. . . the plan is to lock my self in the computer room and stay online for aslong as I can with my headphones playing music full blast. T__T;